I have now ventured into my 30's....weeks of my pregnancy that is! With it now being 2011 the due date seems to feel closer than before. Maybe it was because before I could say we are having our second son "next year" but that doesn't work anymore. Maybe it is because many pregnancies you have the baby at some week in the 30 range. (Unless your Jaxson Barry and decide to come at 41weeks) But maybe it is simply because it
is getting close.
I have been feeling a little overwhelmed lately when I think how I am going be a good mom to two kids at one time. I know I worried about how I would handle just one baby and now I can't even remember what I did without him. I know that I will be very tired for
at least 6 months with sleepless nights but that we will find a new routine and we will soon not remember what life was like with just one kiddo. It still worries me. And I find myself wondering about simple things, like how I can't open the passenger side of my car when it is parked in the garage so do I back it out first, then go back inside to get the kids, or do I try to put them both in from one side? And how do I put both an infant seat
and a two year old in a cart and still have room for groceries?? Do I just make Jaxson walk, or do I just simply wait to grocery shop until Dave gets home?? I am basically wondering how I leave the house..... oh well, I guess I will just have to figure it out and cross my fingers that I come home with both kids intact. And at least part of my sanity. One good thing though is Jaxson has transitioned into his new bedroom perfectly and is actually sleeping better, longer, and taking naps easier (versus not at all like before) in his new room.
The other thing that I am beginning to feel mounting pressure about is naming this baby boy #2. Dave has said he doesn't want to talk about name ideas with anyone at all. I have stuck to this but have noticed that if I don't talk about it with all the girls in my life I don't talk about it at all! Dave doesn't like to sit around and talk about names for very long, like I do with female friends/family. When we do talk about names our list seems to just get longer, rather than narrowing it down any. I wonder how long the hospital allows you to have your baby named Baby Boy Barry? We might actually find out the answer to that question in March.
On a side note, we went to a New Years day party today at Dave's friend Galinksy. Jaxson played with a little (younger, but looked like the size of a three year old!) boy named Eli that was there, ate alot of food, and played with Uncle Dan. One thing that he loved was this chair... and I think it was just his size.